Found It
Till we bought this place in September, for seven years Patrushka and I traveled - homeless, rootless. No home to go home to. It was circumstances. Not our choice, really - there were things we had to do. East Coast, West Coast, the UK - even South Africa for a couple of months. I like staying on the move. I could live in hotels and just keep going. But I want to go home too. I mean really - Home. That place where I used to live a long long time ago.
All those years a line from an old poem kept trying to be reborn in my head. What was it? How did it go? The snatch I semi-remembered went something like this: "I've been gone so long I don't know where my home is anymore."
But that's not a poem. The actual poem wouldn't form in my mind. I just knew it expressed a deep homesick feeling like mine.
I was leafing through my 1964 journals the other night to help remember details for the Langley Porter post. And I found it - the poem, that is. I had copied it out neatly in my book one afternoon at Langley Porter. "He knows he hath a home, but scarce knows where;
He says it is so far
That he hath quite forgot how to go there."
A quick Google search reveals the passage to be by Henry Vaughan, from his poem Man. Here it is in its entirety, from The Oxford Book of English Verse. Look down towards the bottom of the page.
Ain't that pretty? It was worth the wait.
Labels: Homesick, Langley Porter

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Some words I stole from Ian Anderson, as I currently have none of my own that seem to fit here.
"As the dawn sun breaks over sleepy gardens
I'll be here to do all things to comfort you.
And though I've been away
left you alone this way
why don't you come awake
and let your first smile take me home.
The shadows in the park were longer yesterday
and Lady Luck stood still, waiting for the kill.
And on a jumbo ride
over seas grey, deep and wide
I flew for heaven's sake
and let the angels take me home.
Down steep and narrow lanes I see the chimneys smoking
above the golden fields ... know what the robin feels
in his summer jamboree.
All elements agree
in sweet and stormy blend midwife to winds that send me home."
Here is one of my favorite songs covered by R. Crumb and the Cheap Suit Serenaders (vocal by Tom Marion) from "Home" by Van Steeden and Clarkson, 1931:
When shadows fall, and trees whisper day is ending...
My thoughts are ever wending ...Home....
When crickets call, my heart is forever yearning...
Once more to be returning... Home...
When the hills conceal the setting sun..
Stars begin a peeping one by one..
Night covers all, and though fortune may forsake me..
Sweet dreams will ever take me..Home
Carrie
I am often homesick, and it isn't for anyplace I can get to here. I think it must be for Home, for Heaven...nothing here quite measures up.
Question: When do the Cheap Suit Serenaders trump Jethro Tull?
Answer: When you look for Home on ITunes. I can buy the Cheap Suits' Home for .99 but Ian stayed home in Edinburgh I guess.
Pity. I thought it would be neat to listen to them both in tandem.
Back in the early '70's R. Crumb, also of comix fame and the "Keep on Truckin'" man, had a band that played around the midwest called, of all things, "R.Crumb and his Keep On Truckin' Orchestra". My two favorite songs were "River Blues" and "Wisconsin Wiggle".
Sorry Bro. Pig. Tull trumps Crumb on this one. Here's a link to an MP3 site where you can get the whole album for 1.89 and the song "Home" for 13 cents. http://music.allofmp3.com/r2/Jethro_Tull/Stormwatch/group_1148/album_30/mcatalog.shtml?albref=19 . Click the name of the song and a little speaker appears and you can preview it.
I have the Suits doing Wisconsin Wiggles on one of the very last 78 rpm records ever pressed. That was R. Crumb aesthetic all the way.
Carrie
Only at the Pondering Pig can one go from seventeenth century metaphysical poetry to a debate on whether Jethro Tull trumps the Cheap Suit Serenaders -- in less than six comments. Good work, everybody!
It's the renaissance attitude we get around here, Pig, that makes us find sense in these seemingly ambiguous thought/dreams. We find connections in the strangest places. It's that synchronicity that Jung talked about, the interconnectedness of generations and epochs.
The water may seem muddy sometimes but it is, in fact, crystal clear. Besides, I thought pigs like mud?
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